Reflection

Dusting out the cobwebs, it’s been awhile!

As I was sitting here reading my past blogs, I just wanted to share that God has ended my storm, awhile back actually 🙂 He has answered my every prayer in the situation. I have remained faithful and hopeful through it all. Never doubting and always knowing it would be in God’s timing not mine and not his. Things had to happen to get to where we are today. I don’t like that it happened but I know it had to happen.

Life throws us many curves and you just have to learn to roll with the punches and know that God is in control.

I never doubted that we weren’t meant to be, I never waivered on my love for him and I never once gave up on us. Back in September he gave me the most amazing birthday ever, a day all about ME , the only day I allow it to be about me. It’s one day I will never forget. On Thanksgiving Day, he asked me to marry him! 6 1/2 years after we met. I always thought I wasn’t good enough for him but I was always patiently waiting for him to ask me, never pressuring, never forcing the issue. I’m not sure what changed his outlook, only that what we went through made him see what he risked losing.

I can’t explain my love for him, there are no words to accurately describe it i’ve never felt this way about anyone before. It’s a feeling of completion when I am with him and a feeling of being incomplete when I am not.

I look forward to the day when we can finally be together. To face whatever this crazy thing called life throws at US together. I’m sure the ride isn’t over by a long shot and we will have many ups and downs but together we can concur this never ending ride.

Stay Faithful and stay Hopeful! Keep on keeping on and God will get you where you are meant to be! 🙂

Patience

Dear Lord,

I have been patient for a long long time, waiting for your timing. When will that be? I’m getting weary and some days I know I’m holding on by a thread but I refuse to give up. I’m fighting for what my heart wants. HE is WORTH the fight … I know he is … I know in the end of this storm we will be much better .. it’s just getting through it that’s the rough part. Leaning on you Lord to get me through and show me strength when I am weak.

 

 

 

 

No one knows the torture I am in

I smile, I laugh, I grin

Underneath the surface, the devil taunts me

Barely hanging on to what I know to be true and all that it can be

I reach up and pray to God, Dear Lord please get US through

Take these thoughts of mine and toss them away

Take ALL obstacles soon or even today

Have mercy and make this storm end

For I can’t handle just being a “friend”

After 6 years, I deserve more than that

I don’t know how to tell him what I feel

How he hurt me, how it’s all so surreal

In his state of mind, I don’t think it even matters

I see brief periods where he lets me in, my heart melts when he winks and smiles

I miss his kiss, I miss his hand

Dear Lord, I beg PLEASE LET THIS STORM END!

 

 

Loving him and standing beside him through it ALL. Believing and knowing in the end it will be him and I and better than before.

 

 

I won’t give up …

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you’ve come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

‘Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, I won’t give up

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not
And who I am

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up
Still looking up.

I won’t give up on us (no I’m not giving up)
God knows I’m tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We’ve got a lot to learn (we’re alive, we are loved)
God knows we’re worth it (and we’re worth it)

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

I absolutely LOVE this song right now!