Patience

Dear Lord,

I have been patient for a long long time, waiting for your timing. When will that be? I’m getting weary and some days I know I’m holding on by a thread but I refuse to give up. I’m fighting for what my heart wants. HE is WORTH the fight … I know he is … I know in the end of this storm we will be much better .. it’s just getting through it that’s the rough part. Leaning on you Lord to get me through and show me strength when I am weak.

 

 

 

 

No one knows the torture I am in

I smile, I laugh, I grin

Underneath the surface, the devil taunts me

Barely hanging on to what I know to be true and all that it can be

I reach up and pray to God, Dear Lord please get US through

Take these thoughts of mine and toss them away

Take ALL obstacles soon or even today

Have mercy and make this storm end

For I can’t handle just being a “friend”

After 6 years, I deserve more than that

I don’t know how to tell him what I feel

How he hurt me, how it’s all so surreal

In his state of mind, I don’t think it even matters

I see brief periods where he lets me in, my heart melts when he winks and smiles

I miss his kiss, I miss his hand

Dear Lord, I beg PLEASE LET THIS STORM END!

 

 

Loving him and standing beside him through it ALL. Believing and knowing in the end it will be him and I and better than before.

 

 

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Life Is Too Short…

If there is anything I have learned in life, it’s that it’s too short and it can be ripped away from you in a split second. Personally, I have suffered a lot of loss in my life, including 2 children of my own. It is through these losses  that I have learned to love with my whole heart. As I look around, I see loss everyday in one form or another and it’s just a constant reminder and reinforces and confirms that life is too short, embrace and enjoy it while you have it and the people you love.

Life is too short for regrets, for grudges, for stressing over things in which you have no control. Love like there is no tomorrow because there is a chance it could be the last time you see someone. If you love someone, tell them, because they may never know otherwise and one day it could be too late to say it. Don’t risk living a life full of regrets. Live each day as if it were your last because it very well could be. Impact lives in a positive way and do great things.

I know people look at me and wonder how I can stay so positive with  everything I have been through in my life. My Answer? God! God has been there for me every single step of the way. From living in a dysfunctional family growing up, to losing and burying 2 of my children, through the emotional and mental abuse of a repeatedly cheating husband , through being a single mom, through all the heartache I have recently been through.. God has carried me and no matter what, he will always carry me when I cannot walk on my own.

If someone you love hurts you, forgive them. Forgiveness is a powerful thing. In a world full of hate, negativity, hurt, revenge, and just all around evil, it’s easy to fall prey to all the negative feelings that consume you when you have been hurt, but to conquer those negative feelings and to choose love instead of hate and revenge is the greatest feeling of all. Life is too short to live with negative feelings that just bring you down all the time. Recently, I’ve been hurt by someone I love. I can’t explain the feelings I have, there are no words. I’ve chosen to love over hate and revenge and I have nothing but love in my heart for him, there is no hate, revenge, anger, or any such negative feelings for him .. just pure unconditional love. I know people don’t get that, maybe even he doesn’t get that 🙂 ….but I know it comes from God because nothing so pure could come from anywhere else.

So live life to it’s fullest, love with all your heart, love unconditionally, love pure, laugh often and forgive those who mean the most to you for you may never have that chance again.